my oh my,
i think i've gone thru alot this few weeks.
maybe it was not my luck .
but i do not want the next few weeks to be ugly too.
oh my.
i admit that some of the stupid things
happen due to me,
well obviously ,
i am that kind of girl.
i admit that i am the girl where u know,
problems just could not resist if it wont stop by,
even for awhile.
and im the type who will not forgive
that easily to some people,
who of course,
did a great mistake to me,
like my reputation or saying things that i dont even do,
or just there to ruin my relationship,
happiness,
ya, im not a believer for a second chance,
cos they did it to shut me,
why they cant do it again right?
because i dont think
some people can really change
just like that,
maybe they just accept you,
because
of some situation.
lets skip that,
money ,yes,
it can buy u like almost everything,
and yes, money cant buy you pure love,
and shits,
but what can pure love give u ?
that happiness when u have ALOT ALOT of cashh
$$$$$$$$
well, im not being a typical type,
but the more i see this life,
the more typical it is,
so damn it k,
to whoever saying,
i just need love, i dont need the money.
so eat sand okey?
and try to live.
u wont be happy,
like the billionaire,
even if they are divorced ,
they still got the money,
to satisfy
watever needs that u want.
so yarp,
im so going back to school,
and study,
get a higher education,
i bet that marriage can wait,
wait okey?
next step,
have u ever cried while walking?
i have
have u ever been left like that,abandoned?
i have.
have u ever been left at the side of the road?
i have.
have u ever cried inside the mrt?
i have.
have u ever cried inside your workplace toilet?
yup ,a few times.
have u ever felt that u are just not worth it?
always.
have u ever felt u're not important in yr love heart?
wow, like every day.
have u ever felt like leaving him?
yup, killing him too.
but despite all that, do you still love him?
ya, i do. and i dont know what is going
to make me hate him.
i just love him,
simply love.
the thought of him going away,
can make me go crazy.
i dont care.
he is kind,
but sometimes, its just me.
when love doesnt go your way,
maybe it wasnt your partner fault,
maybe its you.
maybe you are being sensitive,
maybe you are being too possessive.
maybe u control him too much.
i learn to let go a little bit,
i used to be all ga-ga .
but being to ga-ga
will make you worst
if your partner is not too ga-ga.
so i learn to let go a little.
maybe it will make me feel better,
at least.
=)
man,
im so into into into you.
9 feb,
i will apply my poly .
just hope i get the chance.
i need something to concentrate.
=(
furthermore,
its so difficult to have
boyfriend schooling and you werking.
friends schooling.
i just miss studying with them.
so life oh life,
where will u take me next year,
this year was a journey
through life ,love ,frens.
will next year be
life, work,schooling ,love and frens.
lets just wait and see.
