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I turn 19 last few weeks.
and im going to enjoy my last year of being a teenager.
i have already know faris for more than 1 year,
and next mth would be our anniversary.
the time just flies without me realising it that much.
next month would be 2011 already.
and if there is a chance i would be continuing my studies,
and ending my working life in universal studios.

and to add up my girlfriends,
which i would like to specify the names ,
cos some did not attend to some reasons,
so these girls, cassie qin lid,
celebrated my birthday with cakes,
beach and tuna + nutella.
the only word to describe it is
AWE---SOMEEE.
and this is like the kind of first time,
i celebrated my bday with my girls.
i think its great.
and as for my friendship with this girls,
it is not gonna end,
and i can see it,
maybe some arguments,
not meeting each other that much,
not all girls will be there,
but we will still stay together u know.
so what is our plans for end of year?
=(


From what i know now ,
my life is messed up,
alot of people is messing with my head,
and i think i have overstress myself,
till i cannot get a hang of everything,
and i will just blurt out some nonsense
that would hurt the other party feelings,
but oh boy,
i dont care cause what im saying is the truth,
i cannot act all cool,
when its hurting the ass out of me right?

Every single things this few months
is not right and sometimes it dont really make sense.
like wen u add up $3+$2=5.
and i say its wrng bcos u never put the dollar sign infront of it.
but its actually okey,and i dont need to make a big deal out of it,
and its all because i wan to see perfectness.
u know like FULL SCORE.
but who the hell get FULL SCORE all the time,
i dont , especially in my math .
or maybe im expecting more
and more and more as i grow older.

And i got this sickness of all attention on me ,
please.
i know i cant always get it,
but i get it at home, so im expecting the same outside.
but not that kind of .oi please look at me,
hello look at me, hello be with me.
nope nope nope.
just some u know ,hey i exist?
but it kind of difficult for other people
that they go.
lying at u all times,
cheat yr feelings,
they exist.
and they dont care how u feel ,
like how u stand up for them.
but for them,
hey u wont let me go ryte?
its ok, she forgive me,
but till when ?

and u know till the day,
when u ask your bf ,
whether he have the intention to find a new one,
because u are being a bitch,
and he says no la crazy,
that is the day ,
you will know that ,
yr love is still there, and strong.

and because my boyfriend,
has a cute little kitty kind of attitude,
i just cannot be that angry with him.

and please,
dont always steal him from me,
i need him too u know.
please clock.
please time,
please to everything tat always make him
so busy.



and i have just gone through
almost everything from last year,
tat i realise that ,
something-s change..
if im given like a few hours with numb feeling,
without handphone,
just alone.
i would take the moment.


wuuuuhh,
it has always been that difficult.


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