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things are going fine as usual.
i have gone thru puasa and raya too.
alot of things has been happening.
conflicts among friends,
among other people,
with faris.

but as u can see im still standing..

im still confused on whether i should continue my studies,
to tell the truth,
i dont even have the cents to study.
i need to find a new job that can feed me more money.

saying about my job,
im still in dino store,
i have fun friends, loving people.
but as time come,
im bored,
i dont feel like working there,
im lazy to even wake up.
im bored.
i need a new job, but i just dont know
where shud i go.
at least 1.6- 1.7 of pay.
i need to atleast bring home 1.4.
then i can live.

as for today,
im on mc because im having flu.
the point is im tired.
of like everything.

faris make me cried yesterday alone,
and for real i would like to say,
i was about to leave him.
but my heart just kept saying,
yes , but how?
what will happen tomorow?
will u be able to cope?
but then i just could not resist him,
and all i do is ignore my intention.
i've talked,i've cried.
he listen , he cried.
but would everything be okie,
would everything return to the first time i know you.
the attention , the love , like everything.
the answer is no.
that was last time.
and no, it will not be the same.
but at least ,
let it be better than now.
cause i gave u not half, not quarter,
i gave u all,
and it was wrong to do that.
but its all said and done.
if he decided to let it be this way,
i just got to cry.
cause im left with nothing.


and thats the reason i blog today,
i want to see what will happen tomorow.
im just expressing ,
some things that i can not express to anyone.


he may not be my first,
he may be mine now,
but wats for sure,
he may also not be my last.
but i hope this moment that we are having now,
will be a great memory.



i just got one wish,
let him be my last.






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