life has been unfair towards me this few days. i hate it when it feel so sux and down like this. everything just in the mess, and before it could even be fix, another mess will come in. dont u tink that is a little cruel? but yup, nothing can be done. things happens.
how i just wish that i was lying on the patch of grass, taking in every fresh oxygen left on earth. seeing those flower blossom, birds chirping. calm sea. a very nice weather, a lil bit sunny but with a blow of cold wind. and me wearing a yellow dress with a flower at my hair. smiling all the way. cause it felt so ... so... calm.. without anyone disturbing you.. its just u. SNAP OUT OF IT... maybe in heaven. cause this is LIFE.
i have been going through a lot this week, in fact this month. i learn a lot.
i think motivational quote suck. they just motivate us. they are just basically there to make us feel good about our self. and when we feel good, we feel that we are at the top of the world. we conquer everything. but actually we did not. because its just words. a word, an alphabet. to make u feel good. But some motivational quotes , make us realise something, make us motivated to do something. and thats good. its actually the way u read it, understand it. and do it.
but my main concern is such phrases, girly phrases. example, i have one in my blog. it stated,
"you dont like me, tough, i wasnt put here to please you" to make u believe that u just dont care what people think about u. but u actually care. u just put this sentence to make yourself feel better about every single thing.
"give a damn about people hating me" serious? and later u would go complaining. and u would write this at yr journal. just to make you better.
"let people talk about me, its because im special." do you think you are special? or is it they just hate you.
and all this kind of quotes would be all over the place. facebook ,tumbler,twitter. and belongs to girls always to girls.
example , me!
and my sister said, the only thing that makes a girl post like that cause she do not have a life, or she is so low esteem that she needs this kind of quote to make her feel better.
but its not wrong to do all this thing. but one thing, it make u feel better, but will it make your life better?
complicated huh?
well this is girls.
& i want to learn to be a brave girl, to step up when there is something. and not hide behind my computer. typing nonsense. and feel so good and high about it.
that is a no-no.
come on, be brave, and speak up what is in our mind to our enemies, maybe that way. our life would be much better than being a hypocrite.
and all this , thanks to my kak insyirah. i record what she said. and type it her.
time to think and wake up from the fairytale i have been living in.
