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warning: long post!


first there is a lot of thing to be said.
i admit when i started to b with you.
none catch my attention.
none has make me want them.

maybe when i am knowing you,
in process of being with you.
i was in love with someone else.
but dont u know tat at that point.
i was confused with "love"
what is "love"
and i thought it was love . i thought.

but when i get to know you,
i like you. i like you.
but how can i like you?
we were just chatting .
i cant admit that i like you.
every single day i be waiting for you to be online.
but i was confused myself. why?
why do i wait?
and when my fren go . u have sumtin for him?
i went. noo. WHAT? HIM? NO !
i was denying my own feeling.
and it felt sux.
cause i dont want to be .
treated like fuck again.

but as time goes by,
u began to show me the real you.
which i have not seen in other guys.
but again,
i kept denying that i like you.
cause im afraid. or
im just not sure.
isit like " like like " you
or isit. I LIKE YOU?

then when we began to talk,
sms,
meet.
i realise . i did not LIKE YOU?
I LOVE YOU?
and it has only been weeks.
i repeat to myself this is crap.
and again i kept denying.

but look?
i love you now?
i love you!

so .
why does it matter?
how i like you?
oh god! im not sure.
when? im not sure when?
seriously!!!!!!!!
its miracle!

this is miracle.
in a wink of an eye.
i just knew it was you.

and look!
i dont even want other guys now.
i dont even CARE about them

and u go saying
about trust!
like i really betrayed u..
did i?

did i betray u?
by liking you and wen i have the perfect one?
wat perfect one?
if he was perfect.
then wat am i doing here with u?

i have my own confusing years about love.
and u shud have known.
u hate my past! oh yea!
i hate yours too
so what?

we told ourselves
its us.
so?
why u furious now?

i shud be furious ,
when u say about trust at fb,
and all people wud know!
its me!!!
we have folders remember???
we have pictures remember?
so what?
people wud think im disgusting.

and what did i do to lost your trust?
im not been seeing other guys!
i spent like 24 hours with you?

oh ya!
people do confess to me?
and if im tat shit.
i have went to them.
but did i?

im still here!!!

SO TAKE THIS!

u are the one.
i have learn not to say u're perfect!
cos no one is perfect!
but guess what?
i accept your imperfection.
i love you..

SO PLEASE STOP PUNISHING
KIKAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!