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i been editing this post for 2 times.
meaning.?
im not sure .

i just feel like blabbering.
read if u feel like.

im jus wondering, am i the crap?
am i the shit?
cause i tink everyone think so.
maybe they just could not understand my situation
till they themselves feel it.
maybe they talk as if , im the crap and they the real human.
maybe they say im just paranoid, and assuming things.
whatever shit that everyone have.
i think u better shut your mouth.
im not talking lies, im not talking any shits.
so i should believe,
a stupid humans, who go around fucking gals?
then uztaz?
or even i shud believe humans, who dont pray?
then uztaz?
save your breath.


or maybe i am too paranoid,
till i assume things have happen?
or maybe its u all think highly of yourself?
and think things like tat wont happen?
maybe everyone is talking about this crap.
it a mere crap for u all.
but its a piece of big matter for me?

or maybe my father was right?
i was being stupid to even involve myself.
and love does not really exist at my age?


why cant just people believe.
because they think they are always right?
im just confused
and the more i think of it the more confusing.
complicated it gets.

i am ashamed of myself,
talking about this thing to him , and everyone.
because i knew. i knew. they do not believe it.

and how can i survive in r/ship
if there is no trust.
no care .
no concern.
yea, i just blog about what i want for a date.
but eventhough it happen .
it will not be haish.

how u do u love someone,
if u're not sure what she say is the truth.
if u do not really know,
she is lying about her feeling.
u do not really know, she is lying in front of yr face
staring at your eye.
all her smiles, all her laughter
is just a big lie
to cover her biggest lie.
but u thought its the truth.
when she say the truth,
u thought its a lie.
when u started to talk things about her.
when u even forget about her,
what she told you .
ignorant.

and when she knows,
everyting.
your dark secret.
haish!



cant forget my past.
my past.
my past


how to be in a r/ship!!!!!!!!
and hell you to those who do not believe me.
those who do not want to believe the existent of it.
well, who cares,
im suffering.
u ,him, them..
they just sit at the corner,
talk, gossip, laugh, and love.



watever
piss