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look at the faces.
we look pathetic ryte?

i catch my breakfast
with my ex prince.
ya i repeat. ex prince
the one i cried, i gave up, the one i scream
shout,
the one who makes shikin die for a while.
i meet to catch up things with him.
ya , but it was my biggest mistake.
things turn complicated.
head turns heavy.
eyes seems weak.
heart keeps breaking slowly.
tearing my flesh,slowly, n slowly
how hurtin it is.

i knew it was coming,
i knew i had only one person to turn too.
i sms-ed lid.
and yes, as always.
she'll be there.
yup, ex prince seems okie.
joke with her.
but he knew, she knew,
i was about to cry.
but again.
kika needs to stand strng.

firstly, i kept on talking about those
heartbreaking, decisions tat i need to make.
now i was stuck.
yea, as usual, no conclusion.
but then it wasnt the conclusion tat we both need.
its the company, and talks.
i knew she was sad, i knew she was breaking too.
but yet, i cant do much.
i can only fill her mind with all those excitement
tat is coming, and all those things tat we want to do.
yea, we both knew.
we werent into tat topic.
we was drifting away.
hers with her mind.
me with mine.
but again, its not about jokes or laughter.
its about the company.
well, we knew we did not do much to make urself happy.
but at least.
we knew we need to be strng .just strng.

yea,
and she send me off.
saying goodbyes.
off walking, with ipod blasting my ears.
but my mind was out there, somewhere.
even i did not realise tat my auntie was waving at me.
she was just beside me.

came with a conclusion.
tat, life has to move on.
cant be stuck here eventhough how much
he had teach me about stuff, about life.
he was not sure, himself
about being with me.about staying with me.
yeah, and i told him tat.
i gave half my heart to mr piercings.
the other half is still for him, but it is rotting soon.
yeah, we agreed.
friends we shall be.

i smiled, look up in the sky.
" things have settle"
ya, i was feeling abit happy.
tat i get to fight this feeling .
i smiled, n smiled.

looking at mr piercing pic,
i began to apologize for even thinking of going back to ex prince.
but i figure out, maybe..
our love is not strng enuf.
yeah, and i want to make it strng.

as i was about to write a happy entry in this blog.
anonymous came by.
and crash my heart, like again.
tears falling again.
betrayed, useless, sick.
tats wat i felt.
ya, i try to make myself think
this is rumours.
stupid person who just could not see me happy.
but then.
anonymous gave me another tag.
evidence.
and it started all again.

ex prince kol.
yeah, i poured out everitink.
"relax, i love you" he said.
world goes around again.

talked to mr piercings.
" b, i did not do tat, how could i?
who is tat gal, ask her to kol me. i love you"
the world spins faster.


and wats next.?
im going to neglect every single thing.
just for tonight.
no, i cant.
my bro asked me to face it all.

mr piercings, or ex prince.
who shud i be with.
why shud i trust anonymous.
i love mr piercings.
but , i once love ex prince.
mr piercings is giving me prob..
but ex prince, is going to make drown in his arms.
im so in.

dilemma.


how i wish i cud fly,
and shout.
and scream.
and re-born.

im sorry for this post.
excuse me.