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thought afta goin to penang, everyting will be fine.
i can think clearly,
i can re-act maturely.
i can change.
but everyting turned upside down.
its geting worst.


i hate myself for being kind always.
till someone would jus used me.
i hate myself to always give in to everyting.
i hate myself for always feel guilty so easily.
i hate myself for always hurtin myself and cannot hurt others.


i hate being weak.
when i wanted to be strong, i will always end up crying.
i always wanted to keep all the probs to myself,end up emo-ing.
i always need my gfs to be so that i can laugh,
i hate myself for not being able to cheer up myself
i hate myself for always bringing myself into the same trap agen and agen
i hate myself to always go for the wrong decision


i hate my heart that will always feel something i shud not
i hate my heart for always telling me to do someting i shud not.
i hate my heart for always breaking and never mend,instead breakin agen.

i hate my family for not trusting me..
i hate my family for not always being there for me.
i hate my family cos there never hear wat i say n blame me for evertink.

i hate my habit of smokin
i hate my habit of loving to lie to my ownself

i hate my fren cos they neva scold me of my stupidness
i hate my fren cos they neva ask me stop feeling something i shouldnt
i hate my fren cos they always there for me making me too depend on them.


overall, i hate everyting.