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Friday, January 11, 2008 @ 10:32 PM heylo..after a long holidae.. finally im back.. my weight is gaining.. hahakz :) k i met akmal with ryan on wed nite. ryan got into ite. n akmal did stop critising him.. bad of u akmal.. coz tat is my future skul.. hmmphh.. yah i miss yaw mal classmate.. on thurs mornin i met "him" could not reveal his true identity.. he was jus a fwen to me.. but the game make us too into it.. im sure he is confused 2.. n tat time i defend myself..stating tat i m a "fwen" to him.. n cud not do more.. coz i was dared to go up the block.. im not ashamed too write it here.. but more ashamed to have done it.. actually did notin tat i thing is bad.. but jus i tink we were fwens.. it all happen coz he say he was sleepy.. to make him have a peaceful nice slip.. i decided to gave him a message which i always applied to my bro.. but i tink i was wrong..he is a guy..he does have his nafsu. so i did do the wrong thing.. but then..after everiting..i began to think.. did we do it due to dare? or due to the feelings that make us do it? but the dare was being cancel b4 we went up... i am tinking... but he once said tat we be fwens n not more.. n i feel cheap too.. usually wen u want to kis tat guy u will need to feel the love..the feeling n im feeling it.. n if u are a guy and reading tis.. tell me.. can u kiss the gal tat u neva have feelings for her? coz as i knew only prostitute do tat.. so i took that dae as 1 biggest mistake tat i hav done in my whole life.. tat thing haunt me the whole day..the scenes.. im sori to do it..ive always do it due to love.. n i shall erase tat love asap.. haish.. firdaus this one cute guy.. cum to me..went into my heart..giving a nice sensation tat i hav neva had i know him during taking my grandma to doc.. he was working at a stall.. family knew tat he wants my no.. n they ask me to giv.. they kind off want me to be with him n i kind off going to a date with him tomorow.. but i can't i know tat i cannot love him.. fir.. i am not worth waiting 4.. u are late.. due to the fwen thing i fall for him.. i ned to erase him.. onli then i can go to u fir.. omg.. n its tough.. but i still go to the date.. n we see if u can reali hav me.. but the love u gave me is really a great feeling.. i miss u fwens.. baya happi burfdae.. i miss u lidiana.. i miss u shiqin i miss u baya. they cum...love...hurt.. n leave.. does tat feel great to u? n y? |